insiders: Sarah Desirae // 12
-oh this is so so perfect. body size/shape, hair, the pale colouring. so perfect-
Heyya; thank you! This is a mildly complicated answer :) I’ve tried to explain it a few times to others and always fail miserably; so, please forgive me if it’s terribly confusing. The shortest answer is no. While that’s quite common for many systems, it isn’t for ours. Probably one of the biggest reasons this never really manifested in any of us was bc we were raised to believe within every bone in our body that birthdays (along with any celebratory occasion) were pure evil and an action punishable and condemnable by god. I personally always feared birthdays or even having the thought/awareness, from mild childlike excitement, that my birthday was upcoming. I’m sure this held strong influence over all parts when they were created to hold no attachments to such days.
There are, however, some with a “birthday” insomuch as the day they came to be inside. Some insiders are explicitly aware of the day they came into this system - which, would go along with the idea of a birthday/commemorating when one was “born”. BUT. As I’m sure you may be able to deduce, those days are not really days to be “celebrated”. They’re triggering and upsetting to desirable in a 100:1 ratio every time. So, while some do have a date, it’s anything but a special day in which they’d want any extra attention or focus (well, focus that wasn’t based solely on the notion of support and helping them through the hard day).
Then, another complication to this idea is our introjects Downstairs. Some of those parts we know which abuser of ours they’re a direct mirror of; and, those real life people certainly have their own birthdays. Since all of those parts are older than me, they DO age. So, sometimes the “birthday complex” shows up here. Typically (since many are ‘blends/mashups’ or different abusers), they’ll age on the body’s birthday. But, there are three who feel a bit more partial to aging on the birthday of the person they often see themselves as. Still, this is not really something that creates any fondness or cause for festivity amongst the rest of us.
For awhile we started to develop “special days” for parts. Instead of a birthday, we let parts pick a day out of the year to be *their* day. Like a Bridget Day or a Sarah Day. This gave them a chance to have something *like* a birthday where they could be honoured, receive gifts and have a “party” on their behalf. This was really fun for awhile, but then some of my kids (who appreciated this most) began to feel it was a little too close to a “holiday” and struggled instead. Sommme also had trouble picking their date and keeping it; they kept wanting to change it ;) But, we decided that we didn’t want it to be lopsided — honouring some parts, but not others throughout the year. (It also logistically was hard for us to be in “a good place” enough for countless Special Days bc our crew is so large. And, it wasn’t fair to those whose Special Day fell at a time where we just..couldn’t. I’m sure we’ll find some kind of middle ground again and help those who were struggling with the traumatic fears around the celebration come to see there’s nothing harmful about this. We may modify it into doing little groups at a time. :)
But that’s pretty much the whole ordeal with us and birthdays. I wish it was less confusing and more concise. <3
-this, sadly, looks a lot like our Izzi. if you read the post about her the other day, you may be able to infer the things we see and feel in this girl when we look at this photo. it actually looks a great deal LIKE Izz, too. izz isn’t that much bigger than this girl. it’s photos like this that remind me how much *i* relate to and understand izzi. we often seem so different; but she’s one part who really is SO much like me at that age, when she was created. most others are often what i needed to be, but wasn’t and couldn’t be. she and katie. they’re my two mini-me’s.-
insiders: Isabelle “Izzi” Leigh // 13
-this girl has always reminded me of Addie. she particularly does in this photo with a very Addie-like sweater on and a faded, almost pastel coloring to the photo. Addie’s face is a tiiiny bit more angular; otherwise, they’re so very close-
insiders: Adelle “Addie” Sedonah // 17
-oh my goodness. if this doesn’t look like it should be the bathroom that connects Syndey and Rachael’s rooms, i don’t what does. they have a gorgeous one; but it can’t be very spacious — but this isn’t exactly either. oh how incredible. *passes suggestion along to them* -
insiders: Sydney Rebekah // 28
-everything about this is all sydney is. warmth. peace. calm. sunlight. quiet. beauty. clean. free.-
In addition to the last ask I published; I’ve been reading and re-reading this for a few days. It’s….well, it leaves us speechless every time. I’ve even screencapped it and placed it in a special folder where we keep comments that really mean a great deal to us. It hard to express adequate thanks to something SO touching and meaningful; but, please know that it’s pouring from countless parts inside. Messages like this mean the world when things are so dark, shaky and terrifying. Thank you. Deeply and honestly. You are a wonderful soul for taking the time to share your love with us in this way. <333
I stared at this ask in our ask box for nearly a week. I just didn’t want it to leave my msg centre bc it made us smile whenever we’d login. But, now many messages have come in since and I don’t run into as often; so it’s time to let it graduate to our blog to stay forever. You’re wonderful. And thank you so very, very deeply.
insiders: Adelle “Addie” Sedonah // 17
-i’m not sure i can adequately describe what a match this is. not only does addie always have a pile of books for both leisure and study around her, but she often has them sprawled out in front of her huge window that pours in sunlight — much like this. it even looks like morgZ casually came beside her and left her camera behind. the clothes, the hair, the hushed tones. even the round mirror on the ledge is unusually symbolic to addie as a system member. wild.-
insiders: Kylinne “Kyle” September // 17
-ha. no way. if you changed up the jacket a tad and ditched the AA bag, this couldn’t be more of a Kyle replica. we’re finding so many matches today. it’s so beautifully eerie.-
-did you really think it possible for any of us to see this and NOT reblog it..? i think many of you may underestimate the sheer number of keys there are in my house alone. it all begins on my doormat. (that wasn’t a joke)-
-this is like a mashup of Annie’s face, with Landon’s body and almost hair. if the face had reverse features (tiny nose/lips, big eyes) it’d all be very Landon. the expression fits them both ;) it’s interesting how much i realize those two REALLY look alike. this could pass for Annie alone save the tummy ring and a couple tiny body differences. but, i’m surprised i never realized just how much they could pass for each other-
insider mashup: Annie Lorelei (30; DOWNSTAIRS) // Landon Kate (19)
Co-fronting on a good day:
Co-fronting on a bad day:
extremely accurate rep. -Jamison
When too many parts try to co-front at once:
When someone juuuust won’t go back inside:
Annnd, what happens when kid parts co-front :)